Bah

Still not myself tonight... Nope not multiple personality.  haha

I went and got my oil changed today... Now why the hell did I go the day before a holiday weekend starts. What the heck was I thinking?  Quick oil change took and hour and a half.  Oil change cost $29.95.  So, how the hell was my final bill $48.56?  I had to laugh because they told this woman she needed her radiator flushed and refilled.  She had that done in the same place 2 weeks ago, buyer beware.  This was where I feel safe, the dealership.  Just a sign of the times, my friend went to the dentist to have a tooth pulled.  She has great insurance and a good income.  They told her she needed 2 teeth pulled and fluoride treatment.  Get it where you can!

Anyhow more insanity to tomorrow...

I don't want a biography!

I just want this to be about me and I am sick today.  I live with Bi-polar disorder and paranoia.  So I am sick everyday but physically sick today.  My stomach is upset and I am having thoughts of death... That's the paranoia.  The horrible thing about my life is I am alone all the time.  Well, until supper and bedtime.  I hate it.  We took a huge pay cut, went further into debt, moved away from family and friends so we could have more down time.  That didn't happen.

I think my partner is a workaholic.  I go to Al-anon for others in my family but struggle to work my program over work.  I love the wonderful things I have.  I never thought I would have nice things and a nice house.  Mom told me, you will never have anything and I believed her.  Once I accepted I could have things, stuff came.  Well, I think you have to put out and stuff comes back to you 10 fold.  Karma works for the bad and the good.

That's it for tonight... I am not well and that makes me depressed.