I just want this to be about me and I am sick today. I live with Bi-polar disorder and paranoia. So I am sick everyday but physically sick today. My stomach is upset and I am having thoughts of death... That's the paranoia. The horrible thing about my life is I am alone all the time. Well, until supper and bedtime. I hate it. We took a huge pay cut, went further into debt, moved away from family and friends so we could have more down time. That didn't happen.
I think my partner is a workaholic. I go to Al-anon for others in my family but struggle to work my program over work. I love the wonderful things I have. I never thought I would have nice things and a nice house. Mom told me, you will never have anything and I believed her. Once I accepted I could have things, stuff came. Well, I think you have to put out and stuff comes back to you 10 fold. Karma works for the bad and the good.
That's it for tonight... I am not well and that makes me depressed.
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